Viv and
I stayed up way past our bedtimes
last night to watch "Fiddler On The Roof" on one of the movie
channels. I'll admit it right now, I'm a sucker for stuff like
that when it's good, and Fiddler is good. It made a mint for a
reason. We got drawn into it primarily by the inescapable
cinematic undertow of Norman Jewison's directorial work, but the music
and dance and acting show off so much damn talent that it's hard to say
it was any one thing that pulled us away from the household financial
paperwork and riveted us to the TV screen. And besides, we were in
the middle of going over interest rates and 401k stuff, leaving us ripe
for breaking into "If I Were A Rich Man." Idle deedle
didle deedle dum. And okay, throw in the fact that I'm a father to
an eight-year-old girl and it's a safe bet I'm gonna get drunk on the
bittersweet nectar of "Sunrise, Sunset."
It's just
a short snowball ride after that to the Future Projection Festival where
the wife and I got to thinking about that day in the not-so-distant
future when a boy comes a knockin'.
"Hello,
Eddie."
"Why
hello, Mrs. Amaya, and may I say that's a lovely frock you have
on."
"Thank
you, Eddie. Amy's upstairs. She'll be down in a
minute. Would you like a glass of lemonade or something while you
wait?"
"Oh,
no thank you, ma'am. I'll just wait here on this exquisitely
upholstered sofa."
Viv says
that day is gonna kill her, she's gonna lose it. Maybe so. I
figure she's privy to things that go on in the Girl Mind and can
identify with the wonder years of female adolescence, so I let her
squish around and kvetch and kvell in it.
Despite
the traditional scenario of the boisterous overprotective father
scrutinizing boyfriends with a withering eye, I don't believe I'm going
to have a problem with Amy going out on dates. I think I'm capable
of making it perfectly understandable to any potential suitor that if
anything untoward happens with my daughter the punishment is death, a
slow painful one, with dismemberment included free of charge.
Simple. I may even require a pinky finger as a deposit. I'll
do it quietly, maybe even in a whisper.
No, I
think what's really gonna wreck me is her high school graduation.
With this much time and effort spent on homework and therapy and all the
remedial stuff that accessorizes my daughter's life, it goes without
saying that when she takes that stroll in cap and gown I'll be turning
into jelly. Sometimes I'm almost convinced she'll be in her
mid-thirties when it happens, but she's going to do it and I will
blubber. Just thinking about it now is lubing the ocular ducts, as
we manly men say.
*****
We had
a very nice domestic tableau
going after Viv got home from work this evening. She and I made
supper together, a rare occurrence, actually side by side at the stove
making Breakfast For Dinner™, with me on pancakes and Viv on bacon and
eggs.
All we
could do was talk about how cute Amy was in the next room where she sat
in the dark watching Batman while wearing her Batman costume. The
girl does get involved. Her spirit these days is so
light-hearted. She plays with full intensity, and her kindnesses
are so spontaneous and frequent that sometimes I can't help but wonder
if it's all part of some overall equation, that her generous good nature
is meant to bring a hard life into balance for all of us. It will
probably all stop, of course, when we enter the days of boys sitting on
the exquisitely upholstered sofa.
So I write
this to remind myself in the future that there may never be anything
better than bacon and eggs and Batman. This may be the
pinnacle. Which would be just fine.
*****
The
weekend is almost here
and it seems almost surreal not having it planned out.
The first free one since what, October?
I may
sleep the sleep of the just plain tired.
And dream
of hassling teenage boys.
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