For the
last couple of weeks, most of my photographic energy has been spent
making pictures of the new baby across the street. Herman and
Hattie,
who moved into the neighborhood last spring, have been the focus of much
of my attention not only because I'm photographing their daughter, the
pseudonymous Bean, but because they afford me the opportunity to recall those
earliest days of my own fatherhood.
They've
been parents for just over six weeks, and in that time I've had the
chance to recall how much fun it is to just sit and watch what a tiny baby
does. Lots of cooing, wide-eyed looking, and drooling -- and
that's just me. Babies do it too. I'd forgotten how they kick their bootied feet or how soundly they sleep in a
roomful of voices. I'd forgotten the little throaty comfort sounds
that come when they dream their wordless dreams.
I'd also
forgotten how, all at once, there's this other person in the house, in the
schedule, in life. Suddenly the Big Picture has
acquired a never-before-seen primary color laid on in great sweeping
dripping swaths adding not only new hues but a new perspective as well, and
lots of it.
Herman was
telling me how Bean likes to listen to Sting, and it put me in mind of
the music I used to hear as an infant. I'm told it was George
Shearing that worked the soothing magic for me back in the 1950's.
His music stirs something deep in me now, sending me back to a
darkly lit room in a tiny house where I'm held in a grown-up's
arms. I can't say for sure how much of that is actual memory and
how much may be a construction from what I've been told, but
whichever it is, Shearing's piano is enough to deliver me into my own
wordless dream, and I go there from time to time to relax, and to swim
in the belief that there was a time when life was simple.
I'm not
sure what music Amy will associate with her infancy, but Sinatra is
bound to be in there somewhere. Joni Mitchell, Tom Waits, Stan
Kenton, and Antonio Carlos Jobim will be right in there too. These
days, she's going through a serious Beatles phase and likes to hear the
story of how my cousins and I would sing along to the 45 of "I
Wanna Hold Your Hand" every morning before school. Whenever
Amy and I are walking together and she wants to hold my hand, she'll
sing her request. Kinda cute.
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Viv has
the week off, so yesterday we had the rare opportunity to go grocery
shopping together. We're stocked up with all the traditional
comestibles, and if things go as planned, we'll be lounging lazy and
bloated in front of the electric television machine on Thursday
evening.
I'm groggy
already just thinking about it.
The best
way to snap out of this grogginess is to turn on CNN where I see the
Miami-Dade Canvassing Board has just decided to stop hand-counting
ballots.
A perfect
Thanksgiving -- cornbread and circuses.
Here's
another memory -- it was 37 years ago, exactly to the minute as I write
this, that Mr. Losi, the principal of my elementary school when I was in
first grade, turned on the school intercom, tapped the microphone three
times, and said, "May I have your attention please? This is
Mr. Losi speaking. We've just learned that, a few minutes ago, in
Dallas, Texas, President Kennedy..."
You know
the rest.
I'm happy
to see that the national political history of my daughter's childhood is
less violent than was my own. I much prefer the background noise
of her youth to be talk of early precinct reports in a whining Texas
drawl, as opposed to the fear and fury over three loud reports on an
early Texas afternoon.
Who do I
thank for that?
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